Baby Simonson Update #3: Admitted to Antepartum Unit
We hit our first goal after my water broke to make it to 23 weeks without going into to labor or getting an infection. See how mama and baby are doing!
July 2, 2020
Today is “finally” here. We made it to 23 weeks which was our first real goal when my water broke at 19 weeks 5 days pregnant. We were told that it would be a 50/50 chance of me making it this far, and here we are. Baby looks incredible! Good, strong heart beat, and miraculously, my fluid levels look completely normal.
While on bed rest, I have gone to get ultra sounds once a week to check on baby girl, and each time she has gotten a good report and I’ve been told that we didn’t have tests and docs confirming my water broke, that my doctor would say this was a totally normal pregnancy, and happy, healthy baby. My doctor has high hopes that we will continue to progress in this pregnancy, and I’m holding onto that hope and my faith in God to get us through this.
I did get my first round of steroids today, and man, that medicine BURNS! 🔥 I understand it is totally worth it in the end, but if you’re on my blog today because you too are going through something like this, just know it burns. Luckily, not when the needle goes in, only when the medicine pushes through. On the plus, the plan is to give round 2 of steroids on the other side so I get a little break, ha!
Today has been very hard knowing that Matt won’t be allowed in the Antepartum unit to see me. So it will be up to video calls until I get moved to L&D to actually have baby girl that he can come. I was already pretty upset for weeks knowing I wouldn’t see the kids, but was holding onto the fact I knew I would still see my husband. Unfortunately, with COVID-19 cases rapidly increasing in Texas, and the new orders out by Gov. Abbott, the hospital has also buckled down on safety protocols, and I got the news Monday morning that Matt would not be allowed in to see me anymore.
Shout out to the mamas who have ever gone through this, or something similar, because it is not for the faint of heart, that is for sure, and my heart breaks for me, and for all the other women whom I know are isolated without family during a stressful time. There are so many uncertainties continuing to go through my mind, and lots of “what if” scenarios I keep playing out. My prayer is that when this is over, it will all be a bad memory, and Matt and I come out stronger than ever, and our kiddos at home have a happy, healthy mama, and a happy, healthy new baby sister.
I will say, I don’t feel like talking much to anyone, so if you have called, text, emailed, reached out in any way, and I have not gotten back to you, please don’t take offense! I simply just do not have the mental strength, nor energy, at this time to respond to everyone individually. Just know that I see you, and I appreciate you, and all your love and support, and will reach out as I am able. That is another reason for me continuing to blog and make YouTube videos during this time. It has served as an emotional and creative outlet to 1)keep me busy and my mind of things, and 2) get all the information out there to everyone as quickly as possible without having to repeat myself several times.
So, if you want to know how I am… today was a rough day, but still pulling smiles throughout my day. It’s hard to talk about, and I’m working through it. I have good days, and bad days, and from other NICU mamas who have reached out, I know this will be an emotional roller coaster. I know I could go from smiling on the phone, to tears simply by someone asking how I am doing.
If you are wondering what I’m doing… a LOT of praying, Bible Study, video calls with the kiddos, reading lots of books (I’ve read a Harry Potter book a day so far 😅), and of course, sitting on my booty or laying down! You know, bed rest! Ha!
What have I learned? I have truly accepted the fact that I am not the one in control. For as long as I can remember, I’ve been “go go go” and I feel this was God’s way of forcing me to slow down, analyze my priorities, and sit with Him and His word. I have read my Bible more these last few weeks than I probably have in my entire life, and have really dove into understanding scripture, which is something I feel my spiritual self was lacking. It was one thing for me to call myself a Christian, and go to church on Sundays (you know, before COVID-19 when we could actually see our beautiful church family) but I was only half committing to something God was pulling me towards for quite some time, and that is His Word. In addition to reading my Bible, I have been working through “Open Your Bible” by Rachel Myers and Amanda Bible Williams, and my favorite that I cannot wait to start the day and read, “Becoming the Woman God Wants Me to Be” by Donna Partow.
So that is where I am currently at, and I’ll be sure to post as we continue this journey. For family, friends, and why I initially felt called to start blogging about this… other women looking for experiences to compare theirs too. *every woman has a different outcome, and their body responds differently, this has just been my personal experience with PPROM*